when i graduated from science faculty with very good grad , i was think that whole life was waiting me and i though that all doors in life will opened for me , i was saw that after all my suffering in my life i will be comfort in sometimes , i was not know clearly the life and i was not understand it but i thought that the thing which i was waiting will come to me . i don not know what was thing i waiting but only i was waiting something which chine my life .
i decided to apply a job in center which i was training in it .
already i took the job in laser department in these center but the salary was very very low which was not enough to living or eating
so i decided to carry all this and accepted the job also i decided to live a nather time in house of my cousin which was traffic .
i found that a nather hard life was waiting me in this time the role of my mam started and she started to stand on my dreams and started to quarrel with me to stopped me from job and break my dreams but i was stand on face of her because she was not any thing about my suffering and my dreams , i was hate her becaus she was not be in any details in my life and suddenly she want to stand up on my road not support me .
i continued in my life although refuse of my mam . i was working in this job which i loved it but there is not any money i gained from it also i was not eat any thing because i was have not any money and i was shy in house of cousin .
i gained diploma for one year in my field from my job and i became warked and studied but it is soo hard for me because i have not any money and i was like draw in rock .
in someday i heard that my dad was dead and in this time i felt that my back is broken .
although of all these difficults i decided to complete my road and i finished my diploma in laser with grade very good .
but after one year of my job they told me that the have not balance for salary for two months and they want from me to work without salary .
i felt that by life was broken as a bieces and i cannot carry all this so i decided to leave my job because also my country was not valued my efforts .
i decided leave a job and look for ward anather job in anather country and anather people , may be i found the thing which i cannot found it in my family and my country .
i will complete in anather chapter .