Yes, he assures us of this absolution.. we have total forgoveness of sins when we've accpeted His free gift of eternal life... here, now and then, later with Him and the Ftather... via choosing to exchange our paltry attepmts at meaninfulness for is omniscient and utra inconceivebale exciting  life in eternity (here and now, and again, there and then... BUT  I more on this as we go, peppered throughout, (and I promise to give spice alerts so you who may not be 'ready or desirous of hearing the things of the spiritual nature right yet(or ever) well, you'll ahve a vhance to read on if oyu so desire and won't hve to feel force fed... That is not polite and i certainly wouldn't like it if it were reversed..soooo anyway... For now, I just wanted to soeak on how I cannot find what feels like absolution. NOW this is to me, a romantic sounding word, an old English notion... but I believe it'smening rest, as in ... I cannot rest i my own  redemption and having been bought redeemed as a free gift. OH, I believe it... but I cannot seem to  liev it out.  As deep down.. this other side of me (and forgive me ,a sI'm trying to figure hti sout  as i go along.... (that's how I think and come ideas , by dialogging or in the process of writing them out... so, I see a theme wiht me. I bekieve in my head (my cognative-thiking sid eof me (the left side-the pragamntic /logical side