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Valerie's Story > Chapters > Why are boys so confusing?
| Date Range: 02/24/2009 To 03/18/2009 ||
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On the morning of February 24, 2009, I went into the band room with two of my friends to drop off one of their band instruments,A normal thing we do every morning,when i walked in I noticed my crush was in there talking to the teacher. I said "Hello." to both the teacher and Taylor (My crush). Taylor signaled me over so i walked toward him. He said "I have something to ask you..." My heart started racing and i replied with "Yeah?" Taylor looked at me and then to the teacher, obviously nervous, and told me to look to my left. I played along and looked to my left, i noticed a single rose in a vase, but i didn't really think much of it. I looked back at Taylor and said "Uh..." he replied saying "The rose, its for you." My heart raced so fast that i swore it was about to jump out. I grabbed the vase and smelt the rose. "Valerie, will you be my girlfriend?" Taylor asked. "Oh course!" I said and hugged him.Taylor turned around and high fived the band teacher, I had this feeling they talked over how he was going to ask me out, but I wasn't too suprised when he did, since i was pretty aware of how much he fancied me. Maybe i should sort of back up a few months to the very beginning....
It all started in the beginning of the school year in 4th period Outdoor Ed. I didnt have any of my close friends in the class with me, and unfortunatly there were TONS of preps. (I have lots of issues with preps)I did however notice this one guy who would always stare at me. Throughout the months I became really close to two girls in my class and they would always tease me because the guy (Taylor)would constantly flirt with me. He would throw basketballs at my butt, or when we would jog around the track and stare at me. I honestly didn't like Taylor that much at first because when i told my friends about his flirting they would recall on how he flirted with them too. I pretty much ignored him the rest of the semester because i didnt want to get involved with a flirt.
Well christmas break came around and so on the first day I went to one of my best friend's house for a sleepover. I wanted to text someone really bad so i asked Suzi if I could look in her contacts to see if i knew anyone. I came across Taylor's number and saved it to my phone. We texted eachother the entire night, i really enjoyed talking to him because he made me feel atractive, while i was texting him, Suzi and I were playing the Ouija board, as we were talking to it we asked if it minded the fact that i was texting Taylor it replied with "I D-O-N-T L-I-K-E T-A-Y-L-O-R" i asked why and it replied "L-I-E-S." that really freaked me out and i threw my cell. The rest of the weekend i was too scared to Text taylor and so i would ignore his texts.
After a full week of avoiding texting him, i finally gave in. I missed talking to him and I could tell by his text that he was worried that he said something wrong. The WHOLE christmas break i texted Taylor. I felt as if i could trust him with anything and i felt real close to him. When school started back up, i was kind of disapointed that i Didnt have outdoor ed anymore. That was the only class i had with Taylor and now i kind of wished we could have been closer. We talked alot about dating eachother, but i hadnt had a boyfriend in so long that i worried i would screw it up, also i hadnt had my first kiss and I knew Taylor had. So there you have it, you some what know how we got to this dating point.
...Our relationship had been great, and I was just so happy being with him, but right before spring break began, i started noticing that Taylor and I rarely texted as much as we use to. I had this feeling deepdown something was wrong. While I was spending yet another night a Suzi's I decided to call Taylor. I said "Hey, uhm I dont know why, but I feel really distant from you..." it took a while for him to respond and he said "...I-god, i dont want to hurt you, but..." I got this really bad feeling something was going to go wrong but i had to get him to spit it out. "Uh...just tell me, is it something i did?". "No no no. It has nothing to do with you." "Well if thats not it than...is there another girl?" I thought for sure this would not be the case but man was i wrong! "..yeah, you got it right. And believe me you are so much more important!" This made me cry and i couldnt hold it. "Who is it Taylor?" "Its-its, Zoe." GOD i just could not believe this!! He likes a girl in 7th grade who is aparently suppose to be my sevie?!? I cried even harder. "God i wish i could see you." Taylor said. "Why?! so you can see how you made me cry? Just leave me alone." and with that I hung up. My friends tried soothing me and cheering me up, I hid the fact i was still upset, but i just kept thinking "There is no reason to be upset over a boy! There is so much in life to be happy about."
A few days later, Taylor texted me saying "Im sorry but we arent dating anymore." Up until that point we werent really sure what our relationship status was, but after that text i knew it was officially over. I cried to my mom and she told me that any boy who doesnt date me is obviously stupid and doesnt see what they lost. But that didnt really help me, i mean thats what moms should tell their daughters when they are having boy issues, right? Later that night he called me. "What do you want taylor?" i asked. "I've been thinking, and breaking up with you was the dumbest thing i have ever done. Its a huge mistake! I want to date you." He said. "Uh..i dont really know Taylor, I mean why would you break up with me and then all of the sudden change your mind?". "Valerie, as soon as we broke up i realized that was dumb! Ever since i fist laid eyes on you in Outdoor ed, it was like my heart stopped beating. I am so crazy about you, with a capital "C"! Will you please go out with me again." I knew better than to let him off the hook that soon, i told him i needed time to think and with that i hung up. How could he be so stupid?!? To think that if he apologizes that he can just have me back!? I just dont want to get hurt again. I really liked him but i dont want someone who will be all wishy-washy with their disisions. Now all I am waiting for is for Monday, when school starts back up, so that i can talk to taylor about this. I mean i texted him and was like "Can i take the offer to date you again?" and he replied with "I dont know, right now, i think i need to just chill for a while and then see how it goes from then." so i sent a txt saying "Oh come on, just get it over and done with and tell me your going to date Zoe.". "Im not going to date zoe! Okay? I dont like her anymore, i like you, but i just need to be single for a while and get my head in its right place." Should i take this personally or what? I need major advise!